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[girlybruiser]

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[girlybruiser]

It's hard not to. I upset you to the point of anger. Even if I don't fully understand, it's important for me to note it wasn't my intention.

[laserhawk]

Because you didn't know what you were asking for.

[girlybruiser]

I want to understand, but only if you let me, Dolph-san.

[ It's a little forward, but Haru is growing up even in this world, isn't she? She's not the same mild-mannered girl she used to be. ]

[laserhawk]

And when you understand, then what?

[girlybruiser]

That seems to be a strange question.

[ It takes her longer to reply, having to read each response carefully and think on an answer when all her brain wants to do is shut off and have her collapse face first into a bed. ]

We're friends, are we not? The more I understand, the more I can do to support you how I can.

[laserhawk]

And that's the problem.

There's nothing left to support me in. There's nothing left to fix.

It's been over for a long time already.

cw: death talk + p5r spoilers

[girlybruiser]

In Eden, right? And that's terrible. I can't really imagine how it feels.
At one point in my world while we battled a malevolent god, I truly thought I was dying. I sort of accepted my death then. But that's not how it turned out, so I guess I won't ever know until that day comes.
But we aren't in Eden. You can try to build a life in this land.

[ She spied Dolph and Eren in the cafe that night. It felt invasive, like she was seeing something she really shouldn't have been privy to.

But it was tender, soft.

They were in their own world for a moment and she wonders what it took for them to build that together. ]

It's not over here, right? Because you have people like Eren-san around you to keep supporting you, even if you are still searching for whatever it might be.

[laserhawk]

I'm not disregarding what I have here.

It's a life. It's mine. But that's all it is. You can't build a future here.

[girlybruiser]

What makes you say that? Because we go back home eventually?

[laserhawk]

That's right. People go back. They leave.

And eventually, the dream ends.

[girlybruiser]

[ Hm, she disagrees with that, but Dolph isn't someone who will change his mind that easily.

People can't flip a switch like that, not when every aspect of their life was used and abused. ]

It doesn't mean you can't enjoy and build what you can now.
That's what I feel anyway.

[laserhawk]

Sure.

But I'm done hearing about being saved and whatnot. I'm tired of it.

It never works.

sorry for the delay!

[girlybruiser]

[ Haru reads Dolph's reply with an open mind and heart.

Whatever he's been through, the cause of his pain and a tentative heart, she knows it is not her words that need to break through to him.

She's faced this before with the others. A target whose distorted heart grew far too large and dangerous, but rather than change it themselves, they stepped aside.

Sometimes, the one suffering must find the answer within themselves, as well as their own conviction. ]

I'm sorry you could not be saved in Eden.
I may not be as strong like many other Dreamers, but I will always strive to support you any way I can. Because you are my friend.

[laserhawk]

[ a friend. it's not a surprise, and yet it feels surprising still. dolph doesn't consider himself friend material. he just acts on his own terms, as always.

and. well. any "friend" he ever had can attest to his lack of skill. they all died. ]

I'm fine. I can manage my own shit.

we can also start to wrap this since it's at a good place i think

[girlybruiser]

I know you can.
However, I've been lucky enough to have others continue to help me, so I want to do the same for my friends.

sounds good!

[laserhawk]

I guess we've all been lucky.

[ especially him in a place like this. ]

wrapped 💞

[girlybruiser]

We really are, even in such a strange new world.
I guess I should try to get some sleep now... my eyelids feel heavy again. I'll see you around, Dolph-san.

[ Or she's going to start hallucinating nonsense again. ]