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His stomach lurched as he quietly, so quietly says-- ]
I killed Lucina.
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Her hands sit frozen on her lap, eyes wide and unblinking, not quite staring at Goro, almost through him. ]
... I don't understand.
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[ He buries his face in his hands, trying to calm his racing heart. What was Haru thinking? What would she do? ]
She was encouraging the Heartless attacks. It wasn't like her and she was -- she wasn't herself.
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But she does know Lucina is a woman with steely resolve and dedication to Aegis. She wouldn't turn on those core values so easily.
Haru's own stomach is uneasy as she processes this information. ]
Those Heartless got her? Oh no, that's... that can't be.
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[ Not herself at all. And he was agonizing over it. ]
I told Ashley.
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[ It's not making sense to her. There's something else she's missing, she thinks. ]
What happened?
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I shot her. [ Point blank. In the face. He watched her die. ]
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Haru swallows nervously, unsure what to say at first. ]
... but you tried to save her first, right?
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What else could I have done? I didn't know how to stop her other than...[ He finally looks up at her. Worry was written on his face.]
Am I still a monster?
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[ The words tumble out of her mouth a little too fast, a little too defensive. Haru is scrambling, not sure what she needs to say in this moment. She doesn't want to think Goro is capable of cold-hearted murder anymore, not after all the effort he's made to do better. To be better. ]
You're not a monster, Goro-kun. Not if you were trying to help her.
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I feel terrible. Perhaps I should have done more.
[But what? He's gone over what happened in his head more times than he could count now and everything came up the same: he needed to kill her. ]
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Haru lets out a little exhale. ]
Was... was she herself again at the end?
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[ He hasn't spoken to her yet, she hasn't revived yet. There were a number of factors and he just... doesn't know where to begin. ]
Do you think she'll forgive me?
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... the way you've spoken about her, I'd think it's in her heart to.
But I don't really know. I'm sorry.
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[ He's tried so hard not to slip into this path again. Not to pull the trigger on a friend and ally. So much has changed and he's staring down an old path. ]
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[ She looks at Goro, surprised at all to hear him say that. ]
What do you mean by that?
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[ Both of them have been by his side through this journey, and he will never be more grateful for their faith. ]
I don't want to go down this path again. To find myself enjoying pulling the trigger or the smell of gunpowder...
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It's such an uncomfortable thought: Goro with a gun, pointed at someone, the trigger pulled and someone's life taken. Again.
But... circumstances are different this time, aren't they? Although she shudders at the thought, it's different. Isn't it? ]
... I don't think you've failed anyone, but I don't believe you owe me anything for this. This is... this is between you and Lucina.