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I'm okay, I think.
I feel... strangely.
I thought I was past much of this, but the closer this day came the more I began to dwell.

I see.
I, too, have a complex relationship with the man who raised me. As you know.
If you would like to speak with someone about it, you are welcome to talk to me.

Any day, not just today.

It's not a complex!

Oh... I misread that. I'm sorry.
I haven't slept very well today. I suppose it's just because... I've been thinking about Father today. It's been a year now.
Did you think about Madarame the day you changed his heart, Yusuke-kun?

That's alright.

I do. June 5th. Two years, now that I've been here for so long. It's complicated, as I said, but he is still alive, somewhere. I allow it to be a celebratory occasion. I became free on that day.

Do you ever worry about him? Even if what he did was unforgivable, he was your only father, yes?
You never got to meet your biological father, right?

I try not to. He is an old man, it is very likely that he dies in jail.

He was the only father I ever knew. I have known good, supportive people here, but it won't ever be the same.

I'm sorry, Yusuke-kun. These things that happened... it isn't fair.
Father wasn't always the way he was, though. He was kinder once upon a time. With the anniversary of his death, I found myself thinking if he hadn't passed, he might have become the person he used to be.

He might have. He had confessed to his crimes, he was on his way to something better.

I am sorry that he was taken from you. My mother was taken from me, so prematurely that I can barely remember her. Even so, it is still painful sometimes.

Madarame confessed to what he did to your mother, right?

[ It's crazy to think how much she missed before she joined them. ]

But the painting of Sayuri in Leblanc, that is supposed to be her, if I remember well.
I do love that painting a lot. She's so gentle looking... with so much love in her eyes. It sort of makes me feel like the whole cafe is protected by her.

Yes, he did.

That painting was what inspired me to become an artist myself. Learning that it was her who was both artist, and subject, only pushed me further. I think she would be glad to know her work made you feel that way.

Are you planning to honor him, in any way?

I never knew my own mother. I heard very little about her growing up, but from what I did, she was a gentle and beautiful person as well.

Originally, no.
But...
I couldn't stop thinking about him instead and I think now I've made a mistake.

[ The "him" she refers to isn't Kunikazu Okumura. ]